Sigh

We called our caseworker today and officially turned down the referral. It was so hard because he really is a beautiful child, but he's already several pounds heavier and several inches taller than Ephraim, and we're definite that we don't want to adopt out of birth order. To make it worse, we found out that another family was offered a referral for an 18-month-old child on the same day as us, and he really was 18 months old. If the tables had been turned, that child would have been ours, and we'd now have our son. They were behind us on the waiting list, so that's a tough pill to swallow! I know our child is still out there waiting for us, but the wait is getting hard!